so mani days since i last blog as there is nth for mi to blog abt....Past few days was quite ok wif hubby will Tues we started quarrelling oso n is the same old problem again...still the gan problem...y forever oso this problem...If she nv hv been in the presence i think i n hubby will b always loving n no wars n resulted in hurts.I realli dunno wtf hell y always her lah....make mi damn pissed off...I started to lost trust in him due to tat farking incident lah...Is not tat he did things bhind mi jus tat somethings actually make mi lose trust...He promised he will tell her if she did tat again so i gave him another chance n believe him...If tell le yet same thing continue i think i wll tell her...Not sure will it b nicely or nasty so it depends....I wish to stop all this farking quarrels...but i wont b the 1 gvin in cos fault dun lies on mi...Cos i already done wat i shld do say wat i shld say now everything onli lies on hubby....I hope he promised mi to tell her n i hope he will bt not end up disappointing mi...

i got eyes infection ytd n till now its still so red n pain...I already drip my antibiotic eye drop but its still not subsiding...poor mi....

hmmm

These are the makeup done by mi ytd during portfolio...Ytd was kinda rush thou we were given 8hr but still not enuff lah...But i still finish it on time,lucky me....I got a bruise on my hand due to hitting the brush too hard cos i wan clear excess powder on the brush...My bruise is 2 tone is so obvious lor cos im fair lah den can see...Been addicted to the game in my psp....I love it....

the makeup i did for exams

went to sch for exams in the noon wif hazel as she is my model...Was so nervous abt the theory as i tends to 4get things when i see qns papers everytime...Thus today same thing happen again but lucky i still rem quite abit.After theory proceed to prac which means hands on.Was nervous again as usual as i scare i wont make it in time.But still im lucky i did a full face makeup,was satisfied wif the eyebrows i drawn n the eyeshadow i did...Hazel told mi she saw my grades were in the range of 3 n 4 which means still not bad lah but as for theory still dunno yet so am waiting now...

Dad got me my psp ytd n im a happy ger now...figure out everything last nite n its so simple to use...Will b sharing my psp wif hubby...hehe...Dad say my bday pressie n the amt spent on my bday cost a bomb but no choice its a big day u see...lol...Since the day dad back from USA till now,he got us so mani things,andrew(sis bf) n hubby got so mani things not fogetting sis mum n mi got our share too as well...so happy oso cos i got 4 more Coach bag in my collection....lalala...Hubby told mi ytd he not used to receive so mani pressie as he seldoms receive so much gifts so from now on he mus get used to it cos daddy travels often....He got us mainly levis tops,timberland shoes and levis jeans and tops for the guys...sis n mi got our levis tops too...Now wardrobe will b getting too full which means time to clear them...lol...

tramp (rag n bone)

lesson quite fun today...learn special effects today as usual but this time round is adding beard n moustachen oso tramp...everything is fun fun fun...exams are in fun days time shall post up pics...

i find it funny everytime i see the 2 pics i posted above...damn funny when she doing all sort of actions to let us snap pic of her...I luff till i teared...see how serious can tat b...realli bth....But she is veri sporting....

went to did some shopping of stuffs for my upcoming portfolio which is on the coming Sat...Bought mainly fake lashes n nth much thou...Eyed on a halter top jus now n a shawl but din get it cos im cash tight...But i do love da top...shall decide n see if i shld get it...not forgetting i got a undies tat label fuck you...lol

P.S: i miss hubby lah tat gu niang...haiz

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The long skirt i bought last week

Darling wearing the yoshi i got for him...lolx

Our perfect pic after so long
sleep over at darling hse for past 2 days...Having great time wif him.din realli went anywhere onli went to town ytd to get my silkygirl eyeliner for portfolio...After tat took mrt down to meet his frens slack n after tat went home...I love him so much....

entry for fri

special effects - bald


special effects - fixing of chin n nose

bridal day- natural make up





fashion - candy colors

Reached home ard 2+ waited for hazel n her mum to arrive tolet mi practice the make up which im doing for portfolio...everything turn out fine...Went over huuby hse after tat...Den went out awhile wif hubby too...back home wash up n headed to lala wif hubby...

Sth jus strike me,I hv thoughts of studying Law.Since young it has always been my wish to study Law but sad to say tat I dun hv any A lvl or Dip to get into Law sch...So found 2 private Law Sch of SG...Course fees kinda ex too...Think i shall slowly consider abt it.May complete my Dip in makeup n take up CIBTAC Aesthetic Treatments Diploma first den decide shld i study Law...There are pros n cons tats for sure...in a diplema right now

bullet wound


think this is 3rd degree burn


my nude face w/o make up onli draw brows




1 of the stage n drama make up i did a week ago..cant rem exactly when

Went to sch as usual learn special effects make up today...Did bullet wound,burn n wrinkles...Quite easy to do it n is quite fun as well...Cook century egg congee for bi and mum as dinner with prawns,minced pork,salted egg yolk and chicken wings.These are his favourites n this is oso the 1st time i cook such a thing...First time i chop the chicken n doing all sort of things in the kitchen which i nv done in my LIFE.Sounds like im a housewife undergo training lor,sacrifce for him using my bare hands to touch oily n raw food...Im so not used to it...But wat to do somehow i got to learn cos 1 day i will bcome someone wife too...I still got long way to learn...hmm shall stop here n time for bed....nite peeps

最近我很难过，如何做才好。我认为人与人之间因该保持距离不管是男或女。我为了这事件一直都很不只是好。我好想跟他说但却不知从何说起，真是很矛盾。我所看见得每一件事都令我难受。我也是人也有感觉，我不说不代表不介意。我也会吃醋。我真的忍无可忍了，难道我是透明的吗？你能为我超想吗？嗨~ 要我如何开口对你说呢？

did some changes to my blog layout due to boredom...missing hubby right now at this moment...wont b meeting him later due to his work schedule is tight today...Seeing him working so hard for our future make mi heart pain...Yet im here not working onli at times taking assignment from loreal but basically im studying tats y...Gonna get admin job once i finish my course.Cannot tolerate working retail hrs for this moment yet I gonna miss the pay n stuffs.There are pros n cons as usual.Had a talk wif hubby last night regarding of striving n earn more for future.I came out sth like dun b tgt for tat moment n let him concentrate working but he refused,there's a reason y he dun agree to it...Cos he not used to life w/o mi..But as i said meeting him will b as usal but not so often as wat it is now but he refused again.So from this moment on, I promised not to bring this up again...But infact i dun need so mani material stuffs all i need is jus him wif mi.Seeing his laughters is the happiest den getting any of my material stuffs.He means more den anything else to me,my precious,my love,my life n basically my everything...shall stop here n get a nap....blog again at night

Cats - lesson for ytd


clown - lesson for today
shall nnot type much in this entry kinda tiring...been playing wif my new toy dolly head.Trying to make new hair style wif the hair...Heading to hubby hse soon...

*sigh*..
today my encounter with joss sticks is the biggest joke of the year..
1stly, i took a lil too big bunch and had a hard time lighting them up.. then, i had a even harder time trying to put out the fire..

then, while poking the joss sticks in the ground, suddenly the whole bunch in my hand caught fire again for no reason, and took a quite a while trying to put out the fire again.. x.x


worst of all, today 5.5M toto, i kana 7 numbers.. but is all in 1 piece of paper, not in a row.. @.@

wth.. there goes my $10..

- Chris

Im not happy at all.Its not bcos hubby din treat mi well but infact he treat mi the best...But this hv keep poundering in my mind for quite sometime n now i finally hv the thoughts of saying it out but dunno how to start or ask hubby...Im afraid tat when i start asking,war between us might start again.I dun wish this happen,I HAD ENOUGH of cold war.The feeling aint nice as well...But how shld i not think while im trying to slp.Everytime when i close my eyes the same old thing appear.Tears always rolled down just like tat.

I hate my hubby keeping secret from me yet other noe abt it but not me...Have i start to bcome someone transparent infront of u??? i realli hate this feeling.Couples shldnt hv secret between each other but yet u hv secret tat u din let mi noe...Is the secret so impt till the extend u realli cant let mi noe but yet on the other hand other noe abt it...I realli feel kind of unfair towards mi...Everytime whenever i hv sth i oso share wif u but y cant u...I jus wanna know abt it,be it bad or gd, i jus wish u could share everything wif mi....haiz...this feeling u gave me tends to make mi hate u right at this moment....

went hubby place in the morning...Went to get some slp once i reach his place caos i hvn been slping last night cos i had a bad stomachache dunno wats wrong with mi...Slp all the way till ard 1+ close to 2 in the noon.Woke up n had lunch,receive a call from my ger she was crying so badly....Things wasnt right for her n her boy,this goes to me n hubby too...Tried to slp last night but the moment i closes my eyes,i start tearing again...This time wasnt abt hubby laid his hands on mi but some other things.After lunch went to nap wif hubby till ard 4+ woke up n did laundry for hubby cos he might need them in anytime...Clean up the room tgt wif hubby n now his room is clean n neat le.Went IKEA after dinner,bought the things needed for drawing up a curtain sad to say din got the chest of drawers cos its too heavy to carry it alone so shall get it next week n oso fix up everything by next week...

once again.. i have to dig my head and write something here..
-.-

oh well.. cant think of any...
i love huiru..

btw cute game -----> www.outspark.com/fiesta

Joey Mclntyre - stay the same


Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always
Stay the same
'Cause there's nothing
About you I would change

I think that you could be
Whatever you wanted it to be
If you could realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid
If you've got something to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you the way

Don't you ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are exactly
Don't you ever say
You don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself
You're better off by far
And I hope you always
Stay the same
'Cause there's nothing
About you I would change

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You'll make it through

Ooh...
Hi...
Oh-yeah

You were meant to be
Ooh...
Oh

Love yourself
And I hope you always
Stay the same
'Cause there's nothing
About you I would change

No. There's nothing
About you I would change

Don't change

im sad sad sad....so mani things running ard in my mind....ytd went out wif darling in the late noon...Went to get my glass-made earring cos i broke mine n darling got a new 1 as a replacement.Thou its not the same design as the 1 i previously had but still i love my new earring cos its darling buy de...After tat went to PS to get chirppy curry chicken...Happy moments pass the fastest...Had a big quarrel wif darling which makes mi realli sad n my day turned from happy to sad from sweet to sour...Dun wish to elaborate so much here...I somehow feel quite insecure after the quarrel.Tears rolled down as usual,I tried controlling but still tears rolled down...First time ever,darling lay his hands on me which makes mi more sad abt it...I cant blame him cos im the 1 hu started it but till he shldnt lay his hands on me...I jus cant forget the moment tat he laid his hands...Tot of asking for breakup in a harsh but end up i din cos i hate harsh decision cos once made everything will change....Im trying to change but wat i needed most is time.

There is sth which i always kept to myself,I dun wish to say it out cos i noe it wldnt helps too so i chose to keep quiet n keep everything within me...No one noes even my fren...Dun ask me abt it cos i jus wish to keep it to myself...I wish to smile n pout like how i use to do...Im realli sad jus so sad....

hmmm kinda sad today...cos i broke my fav earring ytd.haiz 4get abt it since hubby getting mi a new 1...tml will b able to see hubby le so mani days no see him cos of his work n he stay in camp for the past few days...looking forward to tml...

Went to sch as usual,learnt peking opera make-up today...quite easy to do it...din take any pic of it so no example to look at..lolx...After sch acc xiaoai back to her bf place to get her make-up box n some clothes after tat headed back to pasir ris.WEnT white sand den saw my fren,acc her for lunch n smk after tat went MORE THAN WORDS to get my yoshi bedroom slippers cos too cute le cant resist the temptation of getting them beside tat i oso got a bunny bolster n 3 small containers of cookies.Spent ard 50+ there....tats all for today...eyes closing le...nite peeps....

wif no make-up on merely my sunblock nia .(small eyes...sob)


realli look like ah ma lor...lolx

wed sch as usual learn stage n drama make up n this time is againg...quite fun but messy tats all...after class went home n sit infront of pc n game all the way till late night...shall post of pics

Din attend sch today cos i got slight red eyes n sad to say i need to go back office submit my papers wasted my day n transport fares jus like tat if not i can jolly well hv a gd damn rest...lazy to blog le...shall continue b4 i slp

went sch as usual learn Stage n drama makeup n it turn out to be veri thick.ytd learn Juliet makeup those natural look but strong shading n highlighting but everything turn out fine...Took a bus back to Tamp cos its raining heavily.Went to get my GL wallet same rand wif hubby n after tat went back home.Reach home relack abit den go out,went hubby hse take things n went tamp int meet mummy n pack dinner home.After eating continue gaming again...tats all for today

reach hubby hse ard 11+ today den nua at his hse awhile b4 the both of us headed downstairs to get out brunch home...After our brunch,nap awhile den prepare n out to meet frens...despite of not knowing where to go, we went to Comes fair.Damn crowded as usual cos alot typical singaporeans as usual n hubby got his bluetooth earpiece n got a mouse pad free n jus nice he needed 1 too...Walked to Carrefour to get some sushi cos im hungry n while walking i was playing wif my hair n i notice my hair got the ah neh smell make mi so pek cek n went to use perfume tester n spray on tat area n it smells better after tat.I nv like ah neh smell cos it stinks like hell lah.I bet no one likes too...After grabbing light snacks at Carrefout went CANS to slack awhile b4 heading home.Fetch Qiang le den send both kev n qiang back n hubby send mi home after tat...tats all for today...shal go gaming wif hubby...a new game he intro mi or shall i say he ask mi acc him to game...lol

edited

Today is the first day of Sept which is oso 8mth anniversary for mi n hubby...Been busy these few days tats y i din hv time to blog but time wif hubby also getting lesser cos he's getting busy lately...Waiting for hubby come my house but he also doing things taking his own sweet time making me pissed offf...grrr...so hungry...dunno wan ask him pack lunch for mi anot...hmm...

Poor dear reach my hse at 3pm cos he pighead lah...He took bus 38 all the way till Bedok Int,no choice think he too tired recently...So heartache to see him so tired everyday...Den slack at my hse till 5,bath n prepare n went out...Went Eastpoint first to get some stuffs n oso order my contact lens.Den took a bus back to tamp int n got some stuffs after tat walk back to hubby hse den slack n took my dinner there...Agree to play online game tgt wif hubby...so i shall try out 1st n see hw the game is....time to go....bed is calling...nite peeps....