entry especially for my hubby

Typing this entry jus for my hubby:

We hv been tgt for ard 10mths gg 11 mths,im so glad tat i hv u wif mi by my side all the time.But everything seems to change now,ever since the big quarrel at marina sq,ur attitude towards mi change n this is how i feel.I told u abt it but u say im thinking too much.Mayb it is.But how can i dun think when everything starts to change.Im so afraid of losing you ever since tat quarrel.I know i always quarrel wif you over the smallest matter,but this show tat i realli care for u n oso u meant alot to mi.If i dun love you or jus b wif u jus for the sake of being tgt,do u you i would b so concern.I dun think so i will.After tat quarrel,i realise i realli love u alot tat i cant afford to lose.But wat abt you? R u feeling the same? U hv stop to sweet-talk mi after tat quarrel which make mi feel sad and not used to it.I wish we can b back to the same,more concern n care from u,alil sweet-talk from u to make mi feel better.I wish everything can turn back to the past where we dun hv any quarrels.I dun wish to hv any quarrels wif you anymore,i jus wan back a happy us.I noe most of the time is was mi who started the quarrel n saying tat i wan brk during our quarrel but i dun mean it.Now,I dunno if u still love mi cos at times i wld think tat ur love for mi might jus fade off like tat cos im always quarrelling wif u resulted tat both of us are hurt.I noe u are trying to give in to mi at times but i always make things difficult for u.Las week during the quarrel, u said tat i cant bear to change my number n now im going to take the veri first step to do it.I wan u to feel secure but wat hv u done u make mi feel secure? if i gonna change my number jus to make u feel secure,will u do the same jus to make mi feel secure?
To me u r my world u r my hubby.But hw much u meant to u when u said tat im ur wife. will i gonna be ur everything from now on? I wan us to b happy after this very quarrel.Im sure im gonna make the veri first move to show u tat i can sacrifice jus for u n this r/s to make u secure....

no tittle in mind

jus feel like blogging but dunno wat to blog...been feeling veri sleepy these days...wont b able to meet hubby these few days cos he busy wif work but still im missing him...hope he miss mi too...but u think he will de...few more days will b our 11mths n den 1 mth to our 1yr anni...happys

Was home not long ago...day has been bad...Tears was shed.Quarrels was wat we had most of today...Its my fault again,if i hadnt been so sensitive towards certain things,the quarrel can b avoided...But no use to say now,its already over...Thou both of us are fine now but i realli can feel the distance between us now...Apologised have been made,i hv taken the 1st step but tears wld jus roll down my face whn i happen to think back...We left hurt and scar in each other n it cannot b erased,we can onli face it n learn from it...But still I can feel tat hubby attitute towards me is totally diff no longer i feel tat he the same old him...Seriously,Im not used to it but wat im afraid most is tat his feelings for mi is no longer there after so mani things happening over the few mths.I no longer feel secure and on the other hand i feel veri lost.I lost my directions while trying to find back the old 8...I wan the old him i dun wan the new u....But still no matter wat i hv said to hurt u today doesnt means anything cos im in a angry state.Love for u will always remain the same till the day u realli let go my hands....

Hvn been blogging for almost a week.Been staying over at laogong's place on fri n sat,I love sleeping over at his place cos i got a human size bolster....Love the hugs he gives...Im veri dependent on him lah n i love being wif him....till here abt hubby...
Been going to sch as usual,but sometimes im late oso lah...Cant blame cos i woke up late....Tml will b learning waxing...Not realli excited abt it n dad will b back in few hrs time....

the pics below r hilarous. Orignally from xiaomeizi blog...

THERE WILL BE A MAJOR REARRANGING OF LOCAL ONLINE SHOPPING BLOG AND IMPORTED SPREES...DO LOOK OUT !!!!!

here i am to blog....bascially i hv been veri veri busy these days due to sch,tons of homework,meeting hubby,out wif frens n all.Jus done wif revising for my test tml n so stress...mugging mugging n mugging....Finally i sold the ring which someone gave mi a yr ago n took the the money for some shopping at bugis street.I bought 3 dress, 1 t-shirt n there goes $130 on it....N today i spend another $58 on a tube dress,floral tube n a button blouse...Im so broke now....Tml gonna get $$$ frm mum first n most prolly get the ANATOMY & PHYSIOLOGY book n do some retail therapy again on clothes clothes clothes...

Dint get to see hubby for a few days le n im missing him everytime....I jus so love him...Now am counting down to our 1yr anni which is jus approximately 2mths away....Now i think back is actually quite funny oso...When i first started being tgt wif him,I tot i wont be him for more den 3mths due to his certain habits in the past which i get to noe(not mentioning it out) den mths after mths have passed,I realised i love him more n more n I noe im sinking deeper into the r/s.So i gave myself a chance to stay longer in the r/s n yes i did it n he prove mi wrong too...Thou he can bad-tempered at times but i noe deep down how much I matters to him is jus tat he dun show...(AM i right hubby ?). Loving him so much make mi hv the courage to carrying on n not giving up the r/s thou quarrels still occur but everything will b fine if both willing to give n take but nv take things for granted.I use to take things for granted till the day i realise wat i took for granted will make mi lose everything in 1 day....But no matter wat I will cherish wat i have now.Put back the thought of giving up n walk towards the future...I wanna see the future wif hubby....looking forward to it.....

hubby,no matter how the world change,how the ppl change ard us,my love towards is true n forever it wont change....I hope ur love for mi wont change too...I love u always


the banner i did ytd


I love this pic...isnt it sweet ?

the song i got addiced.....

双子星 - 光良



天上的星星数不清
最亮的是你
不管有多远我愿意
放弃一切寻找你
我不需要用时间为我证明
就可以肯定
你的快乐伤心我都能感应
我们就像双子星
我们面对面 挂在天边
在黑夜里连成一条线
你和我之间 只能相连
两颗心 有一样的信念
我们面对面 挂在天边
流星画出一条抛物线
我许的心愿 早已实现
就是我们永远陪伴在彼此身边
天上的星星数不清
最亮的是你
不管有多远我愿意
放弃一切寻找你
我不需要用时间为我证明
就可以肯定
你的快乐伤心我都能感应
我们就像双子星
我们面对面 挂在天边
在黑夜里连成一条线
你和我之间 只能相连
两颗心 有一样的信念
我们面对面 挂在天边
流星画出一条抛物线
我许的心愿 早已实现
就是我们永远陪伴在彼此身边
我们面对面 挂在天边
在黑夜里连成一条线
你和我之间 只能相连
两颗心 有一样的信念
我们面对面 挂在天边
流星画出一条抛物线
我许的心愿 早已实现
就是我们永远一起拥有每一天

pics taken on hubby's bday last wed....lazy to post out tats y i load it to slide.com

hmm... ytd was a tiring day.. went out training driver whole day.. after work met my bros and lao po go boon keng eat steam boat.. got a cute lighter and a chocolate fudge cake from her..

after dinner, went over to hougang rest awhile drink abit den went home slp le..

shit.. i juz finish 2 cycles.. duno how many cycles left...


- Chris

Today is the 7 nov which marks laogong bday and here he is older by a yr liao...Darling make more wishes so they will come true....I love darling lots...He noe i noe can liao....

Went to sch as usual today wif an extra bags for putting the things needed for facial...Theory is stressing mi especially there are so mani things to rmb as in the terms of bones n all...But im trying my best to memorise them as much as i can so i wldnt hv a problem later on....Was feeling cold in class today as earlier on it was raining cats n dogs....Did carry an umbrella along but i din use it cos my hands are already full wif things,luckily the rain wasnt tat heavy till the extend i will b drenched chicken....Lesoon so far was fine for mi,homework are already almost done n is ready to submit...Tml will b doing manicure....fun fun fun...I miss my laogong alot n oso tml will b staying over at hubby hse...Thurs will b a PH which means no class....

B4 i go to bed,I jus remb today is our 10 MTHS ANNI

HAPPY 10 MTHS ANNI TO HUBBY N ME