currently at hubby's hse n he's slping away left mi alone here blogging....as usual had a tiff...haiz....as usual tears rolled down....went to doc b4 coming over to his place due the allergy of the war wax i use in sch on myself n its showing reaction and my hands look like lobster but lucky the redness are almost gone n now left wif the red bumps...doc say it will leave scare if i scratch it but hw can i not scratch its so itchy leh...anyway i can onli bear wif it cos i ai swee lah...anyway i apply the allergy cram on it hope the bumps get away asap...NO SEAFOOD at the moment now...grrr....Haiz when i think of my problem wif hubby i always teared can say so i love him too much but wat i dun like is toleratiung...Yes i can tolerate now but the problem is how long can i tolerate all this shits....His attitude towards mi is worse den b4...I noe he is tiring but im too...He used to give in to mi n now he no longer do tat or shall i say is seldom le bah,think im the one who always give in now...I feel so sad,Im so scare tat i might realli let go of him but i hope i wont bah..The feelings of letting someone who u love n meant alot to u is terrible is like u mighrt as well kill urself....But i hope i can overcome this...im so sad lah.... no one will ever noe how i feel....sad....