so sianz.. monday going on tpt sup course for 1 wk.. now can only post out on 9 apr.. =(

cant wait to get out of cpc.. T_T


eyes so pain now.. shall blog some other time..

- Chris

Im so depressed realli depressed...I dunno wat to do or wat can i do..Somehow i feel so lost.Feelings of losing hubby is so strong n near..Seriously,I feel so down cos i dunno wat causes this to happen to mi..I feel like crying or shall i say i have been a crybaby most of the time recently.Eyes are swollen and small now...I suppose hubby dunno how i feel deep inside my heart either do i noe how he feel too...But Im willing to change for the better jus for him.Im trying my veri best already but somethings was wif mi by nature so trying to change isnt an overnight thing.So no matter wat i will try my veri best..Hope bi will understand...
I wish bi feelings for mi wont start to fade cos to me he's my everything n he means the world to mi.Days w/o him is so miserable cos i cant get to see him so often n worse still when i am abt to start working,i will hv less time for him n we hv got less time to meet.Bi work from mon-fri onli whereas i got to work from mon-sun and off in bewtween the week..I jus hate the working schedule like this.I hate the feeling of missing someone hu is so near yet so far...HOw I WISH WE ARE MARRIED N LIVE TGT UNDER 1 ROOF so i will b able to see him regardless of the time n tight working schedules.Frankly speaking,seeing him everyday wont make mi get bored of it but make mi love him more n more each day....
SO if some1 were to ask mi wats my greatest wish tis yr,I wld reply : "MY GREATEST WISH THIS YR IS TAT WE ARE MARRIED AND LIVED TGT UNDER 1 ROOF SO TAT I CAN SEE HIM EVERYDAY N NO MATTER WAT"....
i realli love him n i realli do,no matter wat im willing to sacrifice jus for him n its onli him..
time for bed...ciaociao

my eyes so pain.. x.x
so miss dear dear..

slping early tonite..

- Chris

woke up ard 8.30am but nua on my cosy bed till ard 9.30 den got up...turn on my pc n saw my avg doing scan n it make my pc lag like hell...ytd wasnt realli a gd day thou cos somehow i feel insecure wif bi...I tends to keep everything to myself as i got use to doing tat..Realli i feel so insecure in some ways...hubby din do anything wrong or watsoever yet i feel insecure...I dunno wat wrong wif mi...I dun wish to noe either...somehow someday i might noe or might not...jus dun wish to think...I HOPE I WILL GET BACK TO MY USUAL SELF CARRYING A SMILE ON MY FACE...

I dun wish to work but no choice i still hv to cos no work equals to no money n no money n it means no shopping for mi..I miss my shopping days getting wat i wan so easily...Yes,I admit i go for luxury brands but somehow i get sick of the things i bought from boutique soon...But still I wanna get them..I mus cut down of spending too much $$ on luxury brands...But somehow this yr will b different cos I wanna get a big pressie for myself on my bday or b4 my bday cos GST WILL B INCREASED TO 7% so mus but the things i wan from BOUTIQUE BEFORE PRICES INCREASE...

WISHLIST

Small heart pendant,white gold


Louis Vuitton Papillon 30


SHU UEMURA MASCARA LENGTH & WATERPROOF,JET BLACk


SHU UEMURA PRECISE VOLUME MASCARA WATERPROOF,BLACK


Return to Tiffany™ collection heart tag bracelet. Sterling silver

GET MARRIED YOUNG !!!! whaha
ETERNITY WIF BI !!!(priceless) dunno can anot =p